Weekends are the worst...

Well we have passed the 4 month mark and we are now into September. We are as busy as ever and just trying to keep our heads about water. Aidan has started school and soccer and loves both very much. Riley enjoys doing anything her big brother does and is growing up way too fast. I am just trying to stay sane. I love my children more than I could ever explain but a year is a very long time and here we are with only 4 months down. The weeks seem to go by pretty fast for the most part because it's almost as if he's at work. We are used to running our day on our own but when it comes time for the weekend we get a little more lonely. We have lots of friends here in Augusta and great friends at that but like every other family I know they spend their time as a family on the weekends and I don't blame them one bit that's what we always did. That being said it gets really quiet on the weekends. We don't usually meet up with anyone but we do our own thing and yes that is nice but the lack of adult conversation and interaction gets tough. Our communication with Sean has also not been the best, he is traveling a lot and super busy so we will get a few days without hearing from him at all. Aidan can't stop talking about Daddy and saving this for Daddy or doing that with Daddy. It's kind of sad because he truly has no idea how long he will be gone. It is also very sweet because he wants to keep Daddy included in all we do.

Aidan has also learned about what war is or has some idea now. I don't really know where he learned this but lately he has been talking about the bad Army and Daddy being in the good Army. I tell him Daddy is a good guy and we tend to move on. Today he kept going and asked if Daddy had to fight and if he was hitting the other kids daddy's that were in the bad Army. I have NO IDEA where he learned this and was taken off guard I wasn't sure how to answer so I told him Daddy mostly just helps people and if he has to fight he will fight. I don't want to scare him and I wish I knew where he was getting this information about war and how much to go into detail about it. I also don't know how to address Sept. 11th which is right around the corner I want him to know something about the day but once again don't want to scare him and it is such an emotional day that I don't even know if I can talk to him about it. So many thoughts running through my head right now about so many things I'm starting to go crazy not completely but maybe a little bit. Some times I just feel like I need a break or I'm going to scream but not necessarily from my children just everything in general. I can't wait for things to be back to normal again! I miss having my fun weekends with the whole family. I miss having dinner with an adult there is so much I miss.

On a positive note I had two people bless me with random acts of kindness this weekend. I received a card in the mail with a gift certificate to a local restaurant so I wouldn't have to cook one night. I also found a note written on a McDonald's napkin under my windshield wiper that said "Tell your solider thank you for their service! May they all come home safe and soon! God Bless you!" I was blown away but both acts of kindness.

I'm going to leave you with a few tips if you know of someone with a deployed spouse....

1. Don't just make them dinner or offer to make them dinner, have dinner with them. Don't get me wrong it is extremely nice to receive a dinner but the company would be just as welcome.

2. Weekends and night time are the hardest it gets very lonely here after 8 PM!

3. Don't hesitate to Thank a solider or their family it means a lot to them!

4. Most importantly don't forget we are at war still and there are a lot of people big and small effected by this war and we do it because WE LOVE THIS COUNTRY!